i was thinking about my pervious relations with women, it failed because of my own selfishness, my own self absorption. I used to blame them for leaving me or not liking me ..inside my head, but now I know everything was my own fault. I am in guilt, now I lay down in my bed every night and think what if I had done this instead of this ? How could I be so selfish? How could I be so self absorbed ? I feel so much pity on myself, my inability to grasp her psychology, I gave her most unsatisfied relationship.
i had brought this book for about a year ago but I never actually read the book completely. After I start reading it more seriously, I realize my all mistakes. It is been 4 months I have atually started reading everything, and now I am obsessed with it, and actually practicing it in real life. My goal is to be outside of myself and to be a master charmer and be detached, self-sufficient and happy, not letting my insecurities to dominant me. My goal is to root out all my anti seductive qualities like bumbler, suffocater, self-absorption, neediness, controll freak (I used to try to control people(women) to mask my inner insecurity, which I am ashamed of now)
But I take all my guilt as healthy for long term
i have been progressing in these short months. Most shocking strategy was "create a need" and "master the art of insinuation " I used these strategies unconsciously, but I realize immediately. And boom it worked like a magic. It was with different women. The woman wome I use create a need strategy was a woman who is married and have husband. She is in my work. I am really playful aroud her she always teases me saying how is my girlfriend, and I always rspond in funy way saying she is pregnant or I killed her. she was asking me how is my girlfriend, I feel annoyed and said how is HER boyfriend. She could not speak, she blushed and embarrassed. Then she said she does not have boyfriend, i said that is sad , She replayed saying her husband is her boyfriend. It had made her realize her life lacks romance. The sense that I have many gf and she does not hav bf. She was down that all day but she maske it by seeming playful. After few days she started to blushed around me, she can't look at my eyes directly.
Another woman is my friend, I use the insinaution tactic on her, it was unintentionally but then I realize the power of insinuation, it has power to make someone under spell without them even realizing it. I don't want to go through, as it is long, she is shy and bush aroundme now, she wants to be around me, she desires me but I am acting uninterested with my bland face lol
so far my seductive progress is progressing rapidly. I have learn so many things, I am more secure and confident... Another thing is I am also so obsessed with women now, they are in my mind all the time
...(that was so much about myself, I don't want to be windbag, lol good night seducers)